Dear Nate (Part 2)

I apologize in advance for the all-around-ness of this blog-letter. I'm trying to say lots of stuff without saying things I've said in my actual letter to Nate.


Dear Nate,
It's June 11, 2011. One year since we started our crazy dating adventure. And what an adventure it was. As I have said so many times before, its been so amazing. In a year we've gone from I'm-so-nervous-around-you-that-my-hands-are-shaking-and-I'm-blushing-I-like-you-a lot 
to 
I'm-so-comfortable-with-you-I-never-want-to-be-without-you-and-I'm-always-going-to-love-you-how-has-it-only-been-a-year? 


I've really only known you for almost two years but it feels like I've known you my entire life. It feels like you've always been my best friend. I'm so very glad I found you (or you found me or something). I thank God every single day for the amazing guy he placed in my life. I thank Him for His incredible timing. Neither of us were looking for the other. We had just left that in His hands. He saw that very time when we each needed a best friend. I prayed for a long time for someone who would understand everything about me, but every time I thought I found that person it turned out that they never really understood. Then you and your family walked into my church. The absolute last place I thought I'd find someone. That night is permanently etched into my brain. I'll always remember staring at the back of your head and wondering so many things.


That night in November when I asked you to be my friend, I never thought we would end up here. I've said this before but I never thought that we would be best friends let alone fall in love! I'm so glad we did. 
Nate, I couldn't ask for a better guy. I know that you don't see what I do but you really are the most amazing guy ever. You are awesome, funny, nice, smart, a very "good-looking boy", my bestest friend,  the one person most like me, totally incredible, and you love God more than me. You are absolutely everything I prayed for. You're everything I've ever wanted. It was crazy, but I prayed for a guy with brown hair and well...you have brown hair. =) 


Thank you for making my life amazing. You are the very best thing that has happened to me. The past year has been the happiest time of my life. I don't think I would do it any differently if I had the chance.


Thank you for the songs, the letters and the random notes you've written me. I'm not sure if I've told you this or not but they mean a lot to me. I still smile every time I read one of them. 
I'm not sure how you've put up with me for an entire year but you have.You've put up with my extreme hyperness, my bad moods, my random crying, and you haven't run away screaming (which is shocking) yet. That makes me happy.


Nate,  I can't see how I could ever live without you. I love you more than anything. I always will. No matter what. 
Happy One Year, My Love.


Love,
Your Meg


P.S. Do you remember that time you sent me this song? I still love it as much as I did the first time I heard it.

Dear Nate (Part 1)

This is part one of a two part blog-letter to My Nate. I wasn't really planning on doing this but it seems like a good idea. I'm really hoping to get this part done before he gets out of work. Part two will come early tomorrow morning. =)

Dear My Nate,

Wow. It's almost been a year!! It's almost unbelievable how fast it went by. Do you remember how the first weeks and months seemed to go by so slowly? Especially when three words were trying to hard to get out. But here we are now almost one. Whole. Year. 

I'm pretty sure you know all this stuff but I'm going to tell you again anyway.

About this time last year you were here at my house. I was so extremely nervous. Maybe it was because it was the first time you had been here to hang out with just me or maybe it was the fact that that night you would be talking to my dad about us dating. Coloring, sword fights in the rain, Wii...Good times.

Remember how just as Dad said it was time to go oblivious Lewis tried to go too? Another wonderful time. =P

I remember how anxious I felt while waiting for Dad to get home that night. I really, really wanted to know what happened. When he got home he didn't say anything and I waited forever for you to get on Facebook and tell me but you never did. 

That night was one of the longest nights of my life. All I could think was "Nate knows and I don't...". 

I remember the confusion, sadness, and tears of the next morning/afternoon oh so well. That seemed like the worst thing that could have possibly happened to me. I couldn't think of anything all day. And the fact that Mom kept giving me weird smiles all day made it all worse.

I remember the conversation with Mom in the Market Basket parking lot and realizing that she was just as confused as I was. 

I remember how as soon as I got home and Mom said that Dad told us to "knock ourselves  out" I jumped on Facebook and explained. Soon after you sent me the following message: Nate

I, King N8 of Kemenbar, would like to formally request that you, Queen Meg of Kemenbar, would be my girlfriend.

I think we all know what my answer was =)

*laughs* I also remember how confused Lewis was when he saw our relationship status on Facebook. I think we did a fantastic job of keeping secrets. 

Nate, this year has been so incredible. It's been the best and happiest year of my life. I love you so very much. There's more of this to come later.

Love,
Meg


P.S. I love you

What I Thought During A Shower And Other Random Things

This will be a Three Part blog post. Yay.

Part 1.

This morning before I took a shower, I smelled the new soap my dear mother bought. It had a nice, reddish tint to it so I thought it was going to smell as nice as it looked. I. Was. Wrong.

At first I thought, "This smells really weird." and then I thought "This smells kind of good..." and then again, "This smells bad." It went on like this for awhile.

I tried to think of what it smelled like exactly. I spent the entire shower doing that. I just couldn't think of it. (Yes, I spent an entire shower trying to describe the scent of soap.)

Finally, it hit me.

Old people, the waiting area at a service station (e.g. Jiffy Lube), and the slightest hint of citrus (which is what it was supposed to be.). 

End Part 1

Part 2.

I finally figured out the difference between the abbreviations "e.g." and "i.e.". Maybe I'm dumb but I never knew what it was. Yay.

End Part 2

Part 3.

Some guy just drove by blasting "Breathe" by Taylor Swift. That was really funny. I don't think that was the first time it's happened either. It could just be coincidence but someone else drove by a few weeks ago blasting the same song.

End Part 3

Scratch that...it's a Four Part blog post...

Part 4.

A cop just walked by my house and I'm pretty sure he just quacked...Weird.

End part 4

"Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie, 

It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see."

~Breathe by Taylor Swift

(That's the part that was blasting as the car drove by)

Of June

AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

HAPPY JUNE ONETH! (hehe my spell check is going crazy. Yet another thing to celebrate.)

I'm so extremely happy that it is (finally) June. I think I might listen to "Of June" (Owl City) for the next 13 days. I'll explain that in a minute.

There's a lot happening this month that I'm really excited about. 

1. On June 11 Nate and I will celebrate our One Year Dating anniversary. YAY! I'm really excited. It's been an amazing year. Nate's being really secretive and it's. Killing. Me. Thanks, Nate. =P

2.The new Owl City album "All Things Bright and Beautiful" comes out on June 14!! I was all set for the May release and then he moved the date back to June. I yelled loudly about this. Just ask Mom. So after waiting long, agonizing months, I. Am. Ecstatic.

3. We go camping!! *bounces* Fires, S'mores, floating a giant rubber duck in a lake, peoples...it's gonna be great! 

Buzz Lightyear: Don't worry, Woody. In just a few hours you'll be sitting around a campfire with Andy making delicious hot Schmoes.

Woody: They're called "S'mores", Buzz.

Buzz Lightyear: Yes, yes. Of course. 

Toy Story quote! YES! =D

Happy Month of June people! 

"Let June make new

What May made old
And find my love
To be more than enough
For all you know"

~All This June - Nate Miller


P.S. I don't know why this is having issues...the color isn't intentional. *sigh*

I'm out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message.

I decided something awhile ago. I've never told anyone what this decision was. Maybe because it's not exactly important and doesn't come up in daily conversation.
Anyway, I like writing in cursive. It's kind of unnecessary except for signing things, it makes my hand hurt, and I'm terrible at it but it's fun. The end.

Yay.

No Blankets Allowed

I'm sitting here once again trying to decide what to post. There are a million things running through my brain at the moment. It's always  like this. I open blogger just to find out that I really have no idea what I want to say...I guess this is me being indecisive once again. Wait! I know what I want to say! It's not particularly wordy just my random thoughts.

I've been realizing a lot lately how easy it is for one to be lazy when it comes to their walk with God. It's easy to skip reading your Bible claiming "It's just one day...". That one day suddenly becomes days. Before you know it you've gone weeks without touching your Bible except maybe for church or to move it to get at some stuff under it.
It's also easy to just skim over a few passages to say you did it. We read our Bibles witout really reading. As we read we're thinking about everything but what we're reading. I will admit that I'm guilty of this. Sometimes more often than it should be. There are times when I read my Bible and all other thoughts are pushing their way into my mind. By the time I'm finished I have no idea what I've read. That's changing and it will continue to change. It needs to.

It is just as easy to forget to pray. It's easy to either not pray at all or just mumble a small "blanket" prayer. You know, those "Dear God, thanks for all You've done for me. Please bless my friends and family. Amen." or "Dear God, I'm sorry for every sin I've committed today. Please forgive me." kind of prayers.
There's nothing exactly wrong with a prayer like the first one. It just shouldn't be the only prayer we utter. We should be taking the time to really talk to our Lord. We should be constantly in prayer about everything. We should be praying about every little thing. Our problems, fears, our hopes, our wants, our needs. Everything. (1 Thessalonians 5:17 Pray without ceasing.)

Walking with God shouldn't be something we push to the back of our lives.  It can be easy to let life get in the way of it but we shouldn't let it. God should be, rather, needs to be the very center of our lives. We should constantly be striving to love Him and serve Him with all that we have. He died for us so we should be living for Him.

~Psalm 42:1 (NASB)
As the deer pants for the water brooks,
so my soul pants for You, O God.

Special thanks to Nate for the title =)

And that's the end

That's it. I'm done. I didn't think I would survive, but I did!
Just five minutes ago I handed in my last stack of quizzes and tests for the school year. YAY! =)


Now for that important question that people sometimes ask: Did I learn anything? Maybe. *shrug*


I think I'm gonna go clean out my binder...


"And I don't wanna be here
And I don't wanna study now
It's all wrong but it's all right"
~Chem 6A-Switchfoot